We missed the school bus today.
We missed it because my 8 year old refused to put her shoes on without my help. Not just help tying them, which she can do just fine. But help actually putting her feet inside of her shoes.
This should tell you two things about me: 1) that my kids are accustomed to having me do just about everything for them – things that they should be willing and able to do independently at ages 5 and 8. And 2) that I cut things so closely, especially in the mornings, that the slightest deviation throws us all into chaos. Foiled again by two of my biggest shortcomings.
So I had a meltdown. The really ugly kind that makes you cringe with shame about 3 seconds after it’s over. You know the kind I’m talking about, right? Or maybe you don’t. That’s what I’m wondering this morning. I mean, I know I’m not alone. I’m not the only mom with a messy house or uncooperative kids. I certainly can’t be the only mom/runner/blogger struggling to do it all.
But.
What about you moms out there who are able to train for triathlons, cook dinner every night, manage successful blogs…many of you while working full-time outside of the house? And then there’s me…a full-time stay at home mom who misses the school bus, has muddy footprints on her kitchen floor, screws up blog deadlines, and is almost out of clean underwear?
Moms who have it together – What is your secret ingredient, and where can I get some?
I know that I’m comparing my insides with other people’s outsides. And I know that I’m not being patient with myself. But, man, I sure wish I could press the rewind button today.
Or a housekeeper. If I could wish for anything right now, it would have to be a housekeeper.